I’ve been hiding from my shadow like it’s the boogie man. Afraid to look at what’s been making me sad. N ot wanting to look at what’s been bothering me. Feeling not acknowledged. Blaming my partner has been a part of the projection/diversion. Part of the other diversion from this feeling has been keeping myself very, very busy. And not really taking the time to just look and be with myself. So I did, I found some music and I just listened. I started to cry. I found myself tearing up realizing I wasn’t trusting the process. I was worrying about money because I knew that meant getting the support I needed at my birth, from a Doulah or someone like that. But, what I actually wasn’t trusting was that the support would be there for me. I also wasn’t trusting fully my partner to show up emotionally though I know he can and in this space of relaxed knowing, I know he will. I knew what I wanted but hadn’t yet vocalized it to those around me. I hadn’t yet asked for what I...
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